Sour Grapes, Or Honest Assessment?

>> Saturday, March 7, 2009

I started my new job on Monday. The first day was quite rough. Long story...don't ask. But suffice it to say that I felt overwhelmed, and I second-guessed myself about going back to work. Luckily, the week got better, and I am getting the hang of things at the office. My boss told me on Thursday that he was very pleased at how quickly I am learning things. Boy, did I need to hear that! Especially since I felt like I wasn't learning fast enough. I guess it just goes to show that we are our own worst critics sometimes.

The good news is that my writing hasn't fallen completely by the wayside. Despite the dishes, the cooking, and getting the baby fed and put to bed at a decent hour after work, I still manage to do a little writing most nights. Of course, it's usually only a paragraph or a few sentences, but anything helps. It's better than not writing anything at all.

And besides, I've been doing more writing today, now that it's the weekend anyway. Things are looking up for me.

Mostly.

I still have never received any word about my short story that I submitted. So, I went online to the website, and the early results were posted. I did not win either the grand prize or the first place in the category I submitted to. I'm disappointed and frustrated. Especially since I skimmed through the story that won the category I submitted to, and I don't think it is nearly as good as mine. It's certainly not half as creative...and on the risk of sounding snotty, it's well...cliched.

Blah. How do you know when your work is honestly better than someone else's, or when it's just a case of sour grapes?

Well, fine. If they don't want my story, I'll submit it elsewhere. THEIR LOSS!

3 comments:

Echo March 8, 2009 at 12:51 AM  

On the positive note, I'm happy you're doing well at your new job! Even though you didn't realize you were at first. :)
About the story, that sucks. Sorry you didn't win. I'm curious about these stories that did win. Knowing you and your writing, I'd probably agree that yours is better. Hang in there!

ALR March 8, 2009 at 12:30 PM  

Ha! Thanks for the compliment on my writing. I wish I felt as confident as all that.

I read the winning category story in detail today, however, and while it's science fiction instead of fantasy, I still think my writing is better. Definitely more creative.

Grr. *sigh* Well, I'm off to look up possible other publications. *grumble grumble*

lapwriter aka watercolour March 11, 2009 at 5:16 PM  

They publish monthly competition-winning stories in both the UK writing magazines, and sometimes I find it impossible to understand what it was that the judges saw in the winning story.

From any batch of stories that meet the magazine's length and style requirements, I believe the choice of 'winner' is as much a matter of individual taste and fancy as anything else.

It sounds like you have faith in this story so I hope you find the right market for it soon.

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